You are not your mother. What would happen if you stopped analysing, and simply let your true feelings emerge?
There’s nothing like parenting to open your eyes to how you were parented, and I’ve discovered that I have an avoidant attachment style.
As a mother of two, I know I’m passing on the damaging legacy of being emotionally distant. I push my older child away, keeping them at arm’s length. With the youngest, who is still a baby, it’s completely different: I know they are securely attached to me … for now, at least.